Being in relationship with the real me

0:00I think you just like put a nail on the head like that's what I did yes entirely so now so now can you see how even those people in your life like I have we don't even need to go get into the story of it but do you see how even those people in your life maybe like the the outside people looking in they want to know the real you and how how how much of the real you were you actually showing or was it just this facade that you were showing to yourself I'm okay I'm great I'm fine yeah right and and then and then in a way unconsciously your own self judgments and that pain still leaks out right so there's there's this Insidious way that even if you're doing fine and that's okay it can still come out as like in these these icky ways that you might not even realize that makes a lot of sense then nobody wants to be around somebody that they feel like has potential to bring them down or make them more negative or upset who who would you rather be around someone like say that you and I were friends and I was having kind of a shitty day right but we but we had plans to hang out tonight so I'm not going to cancel on you but I'm feeling kind of shitty right so we so we meet and you're like hey how's it going and I'm like I'm doing great I'm great I'm so good um and I'm just like I'm just so happy in my life um yeah so you want ...

1:30... to watch a movie right so that's a then B is like so how you doing Adriel I'm like you know I'm I'm I actually had a kind of a sad day you know um yeah it was kind of rough for me and I don't know maybe I'm judging myself a little bit for feeling sad but H I don't know man it was rough and I don't know it's it's just really good to see you but you know I don't know I feel I feel a little scared about getting you down by being sad but I just wanted to let let you know that's kind of how I've been feeling today that's awesome totally be right yeah so so would that actually have the potential to lift you up or would it be like oh God Adriel stop being so poopy party no it make me feel like oh you're willing to share that with me maybe I can help you and then when you feel happier I'll feel happier too yes so that's the kind of of relationship that is possible that it's not because of herpes that you're going to have these kinds of relationships but herpes wakes you up to realize that wait a minute the the kinds of relationships I want are the kinds of relationships where I'm truly in relationship myself my true my what I'm feeling right now in the ...

2:47... moment you are in relationship with that as my friend as my lover as my family member whoever it is you are in relationship with the real me and it's it's it's it's it's below skin skin deep right yeah herpes is on the skin okay everything else is on the skin superficiality is on the skin this is forcing us to go deeper that's really cool I like that a lot I guess I've never seen that aspect of it or even thought of it as a option before you always think of the people who say I'm happy even when they're not as the strong people and the people that you want to be you know right yeah there's do you feel the difference between strength of resolve and like and and like the strength on the outside versus the strength of vulnerability yeah the strength to actually show myself when I feel like I'm most broken and the and the strength to share that with people that I trust thanks for watching now go here from more information