How do I forgive after herpes?

0:04There's an assumption that uh if I'm if I'm doing forgiveness right then it shouldn't come back up and there's this Loop that happens especially in kind of the the realm of Shame you know which which which herpes is a you know a very Rife um environment for but we all have shame as human beings right um so it becomes that much more in in our face in in this kind of a an arena especially like how do I forgive someone for something that is apparently going to affect me for the rest of my life right so there's this deep embedded thing of well damn it okay I just gota I just got to forgive and then I can then I can move on but what happens is we can get into this Loop of okay I forgive everything's all good and then it the anger can come back up and then we judge ourselves and then we say damn it I'm not doing forgiveness right or damn it how am I still broken how is this still affecting you well I'll tell you how it's affecting you you're a human being right I mean I ...

1:19... think what what meditation does really well is allowing us to really see that we're that we are Spirit but when it comes down to it we are a spirit in a human body and human human bodies feel pain human bodies uh feel rejected human bodies feel anger human bodies hold all of this stuff right so what I would imagine is happening um is that there are there are layers of forgiveness