Herpes and how you see your world

0:00Okay so I'm gonna try to do this over the uh the sound of the Raging River it just rained last night and let's see if we can see it yeah um so let's see like what I've been thinking about is the uh kind of a continuation off of the um off of the one about projection a few days ago I think it was two days ago um and how that ties into I don't know like a continuation of that into let me start with a story okay so I was on my way here and I was like doing a swift walk you know my first part of my morning routine is to um you know just walk swiftly while taking four breaths in and four breaths out and just clearing my head and I'm walking along and um and I go to walk in front of a um an apartment complex where the Road dumps into the main road that I'm walking along so I'm cutting off a car that's about to try to pull out and I'm walking so it takes a little bit longer than you know it would if I were running ...

1:27... in front of the car and I started feeling self-conscious you know I started feeling like oh my gosh like what is this person thinking of me like and I started playing out this scenario in my head automatically like without thinking of it of this person you know cussing at me and like God hurry the F up dude like you're walking come on right and then I I caught myself doing that and realizing that I was projecting onto this person I didn't even see the person's face I just saw that there was a car that I was cutting off by walking right in front of it and I was basically doing the same thing in my head as I would have done probably if I were in the car and I've been practicing not doing that when I'm in the car of like you know road rage and like you know I would much rather allow people to get in front of me if they need to get in front of me or like pedestrians to walk in front of me you know like just not not only allowing it to happen but really like no ...

2:45... please my my pleasure like please go in front of me um so it was interesting to notice in that moment that I assumed that that other driver was cussing me out and judging me and what I'm realizing and this being like the continuation of that whole projection piece is that um the whole phrase um what goes around comes around as much as it's a phrase in a spiritual sense like in an energetic sense like what energy we put out into the world that energy comes back to us and I believe that a part of me believes that and then there's this other part of me Leslie in here um my rational mind that is like that doesn't what no we need like a more psychological uh more of a psychological explanation for this and this is it projection can actually start explaining as far as I'm seeing it how what goes around really does come around because in that one scenario and there are tons of scenarios like that during the day during our the course of our regular day where I could project my own view of how I see the world or how ...

4:14... I interact with my world I can project that onto everyone else around me so that becomes my world so if I am a hundred percent whenever I'm in the car just a hundred percent like letting people go in front of me and just enjoying people walking in front of my car you know to really like push it to an extreme like really just enjoying everything like just the fact that I'm driving like oh yeah cool totally go in front of me if I have that way of being 100 of the time I'm much more likely to believe that everyone else who's driving a car is like that I mean except for when they rolled down their window and literally you know start cussing at me or something but you get the idea like if I live my life with integrity and um and love and acceptance and all of those really awesome qualities then that's how I start to see my world and I assume that everyone has their best intentions if I have my best intentions so really what goes around does come around in a psychological sense too like it's hot that's how ...

5:38... we see our world that's that's all I got I wanted to get that uh get that down on video um and wow uh one week left until the herpes opportunity seminar um wow feeling like uh like nervous and excited and um just really looking forward to it um and then let's see I usually always um I usually always I try to tie in um what I just said into kind of the whole herpes thing um and what goes around comes around in that way too like if I if I were um judging myself with herpes if I judge that I'm disgusting I'm dirty who would ever want me and I'm telling that to myself over and over again then this also ties into the whole self-fulfilling prophecy thing like if I'm really seeing that with myself and I'm treating myself like that then I'm gonna project that onto everyone else friends family potential lovers all ...

7:07... of that so what goes around comes around especially when I treat myself with compassion and I treat myself with self-acceptance and I'm like yeah I I have herpes and yeah sometimes some people have a stigma about it like they feed into the stigma and that's unfortunate because really to me it's not that big of a deal it's just a skin condition so I can treat myself with that kind of compassion and in that in that same vein have that same compassion for even the people who judge the out of me for being some dirty freak right I can I can be like oh wow yeah I I used to think that way I know I know what that's like whether I say it to them or not if I say it in my own head and that's the way that I see my world of you know what this is what herpes means not much then that starts to really like come back at me in in how I see other people seeing me if I see myself in a good way in a self-accepting way then even as I walk down the street and ...

8:24... I catch eyes with people I'm much more likely to assume that they're seeing me that way too because of how I see myself the world really is a reflection of how we see ourselves not just in some you know spiritual energetic way but also in a psychological way like how we process things in our head and how we treat ourselves kinds of words we use all of that stuff building more and more awareness around this can do nothing but help with the self-acceptance and self-love so that's what I got for now enjoy your day foreign